29 October 2010

~ dirty scraps ~ painfully 'letting go'

hiya chickies! hope everyone has been out there gettin scrappy happy! i have! here's my lo for the newsest challenge over at dirty scraps ~ ok...i tried to create a lil apron on there ~ i am definitely NOT a sewer ~ but you get the just of what it is and the meaning behind it once you read the journaling. i also created an altered canvas ~ it's been spritzed with glimmer mist and flipped over to create inside of the canvas' back! the roses on it are handmade ~ my first attempt ~ whohoo and they turned out pretty good! also ~ i did a card using my new copics ~ ok..i'm pretty new at this copic thing ~ so bare with me while i'm learning how to use them. thanks to donna c. for 
all her tips and help.


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the journaling reads:
since you've grown into adults and have become your own person ~ i've learned to cut those apron strings that you've held on so tight with and sometimes that i have, too. you see ~ as your mother ~ i've always wanted to protect you in hopes that you would 'never' have to experience any of the tragedies and turmoils that i've gone through ~ so i've held onto the apron strings and sheltered you and became consumed with 'your' life ~ and in life with your own fears of growing up ~ you've held on too tight. i've had to cut those strings and move on and learn to live my own life without smothering you with my opinions and the 'i think you should of's'. please know ~ i love you both ~ but you need to experience life on your own ~ you need to learn your own lessons ~ be it 'right' or 'wrong'. you need to fall down ~ and get up 'on your own' ~ you need to cry your own cries and laugh your own laughs and as adults you need to make adult decisions. and in the event of a tragedy ~ know i am here ~ supporting you and loving you. and believe me the change of moving on 'for me' hasn't been an easy road ~ but, one day ~ you'll grow up a little more~ your children will grow ~ and you will then understand. we all have to move forward in life ~ learn our own life's lessons and move on. your mother, melody
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~ altered canvas with handmade roses ~

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~ life is sweet ~

thanks for looking chickies
HUGZ
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11 October 2010

~ dirty scraps ~ 'my' own lies


hiya chickies! first off i'd like to wish everyone a very HAPPY THANKSGIVING! hope you all have a wonderful day ~ spent with family and friends. dh and i have been down with a crazy cold that just won't let up - so the two of us are stayin in..and stayin warm! we're gonna cook up a nice lil dinner for ourselves tonight and watch a few movies. on the scrappin side of things ~ i created this lil pumpkin for our table. yep, it's there now and is going to be part of our thanksgiving setting today. the lo is created for the new challenge over at dirty scraps. again ~ the dt rawked another challenge with amazing creations. thanks again ladies for your inspiration. oh...and gotta tell ya ~ I WON #17 challenge at dirty scraps...some copics...how kewl is that eh! i so can't wait for them to arrive so i can get playin.

halloween pumpkin

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'my own lies'

the journaling comes out behind the transparency to reveal more journaling
the journaling reads:
i just don’t get it sometimes ~ the lies i sometimes tell ‘myself’ ~ as stand and face the ‘man in the glass’. i try to justify my responses and actions towards ‘certain’ people when in fact ~ it is me who should be telling the truth. it is me who should taking off the facades and facing reality. i stand there in front of certain people ~ who have indespicably hurt me ~ and words come out of my mouth like ‘yes’...and ‘ok’...and i agree and sometimes laugh ~ and i fake a smile ~ and hug...yet cringe inside..when in reality ~ when deep down inside ...the truth is i really don’t want to participate in certain people’s lives...beacause they’ve had a profound effect on my emotional serenity....and have deeply hurt me...and yet it is me that stands there..and stays in silence with my pain ~ it is me who has the deficiency to love myself enough... it is me that lacks the courage..it is me who is afraid sometimes to say it ‘just the way it is’...it is me who pretends at times to ‘like‘ certain people. it is me who tries to justify ~ it is me who has that false sense of hope...when in fact ~ i know ~ it’ll never change.it is the ‘man in the glass’ that needs to face the truth ~ the real truth ~ and quit lying to herself ~ it is me....who needs to change.it is me who needs to face these people ~ stand up with enough respect for myself ~ and say it ~ the way ‘it is’. stand and be true to ‘yourself’.
 HUGZ


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02 October 2010

~ dirty scraps ~ dedicated to: ~


hiya chickies! whoa...dh and i have been away for two weeks ~ sure is nice to be home ~ and gettin scrappy happy! it was hard not havin my goodies with me ~ ACK! anyhoo ~ we got home last night and i pulled out my 'stuff' and just had to play. ah......that felt good! was up this mornin at 6 am to finish this off. this lo is for the new challenge over at dirty scraps. check it out chickies..we'd love for you to come and play. i used prima papers for this lo.......wuv handcuttin all those goodies. so...without further adu...here's my lo: 'dedicated to my scrappin friends...really (sorry for the crappy pics..i'm havin camera issues this mornin)



jouranling card


the journaling reads:
i cannot even begin to tell you just how appreciative we've been ~ the support my husband and i have been so freely given by everyone i've met in the scrappin world. 31/2 years ago when my husband had his accident and had his arm amputated...our world changed in an instant and it was my scrappin friends that supported us the most. it was the worst time of our lives...and to be honest ~ the company he worked for ...didn't even acknowlege him ~ didn't even send a card ~ and still to this day...no response. it angers me...and yet saddens me. i mean..like..'really'. how sad is that! i've carried so much hurt over their lack of acknowledgement...and must admit it is hard to 'let go'...but, if it wasn't for my scrappin friends, the cards, the encouragement, the love, the flowers ~ sent even from around the world ~ the unconditional love ~ i don't know if i could have held on as long as i have. so, 'really'... this is for my scrappin friends...each of you ~ 'just for being there' ~ 'just for being you' ~ for holding my hand ~ for talking me through all my hubands surgeries ~ for holding 'out' your hand ~ for holding me up when i was fallen down..for encouraging me to continue scrappin...for just loving 'us'...for being there online..for phoning ~ for your unconditional time...'really' you all hold a special place in our hearts...and 'we' thank you.
 HUGZ

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